BFN :(

On December 13th DW and I got a BFN. DW was downstairs eating breakfast while I peed on a stick. I kept starring at it and hoping to see something. Nope just one line and a completely white area where I had hope, dreamed and wished with all my might that there were a line. I checked it in every light imaginable and nothing. When DW came upstairs I showed her. She didn't believe it and thought it was wrong. Then she started to cry. She just couldn't believe that it didn't work. We had done everything right, she just couldn't understand. Then she started to blame the clinic, maybe they had done something wrong. I assured her that we did everything we could and the clinic did too. She took it really hard, which I wasn't really expecting. I mean after all I was the one researching for years and booking all the appointments and really got the ball rolling with everything baby and I have been the one obsessed with everything to do with babies and just dying to have one. I guess she really is excited and wanting a baby too! 

Later that morning I went to the clinic for blood work and then checked by phone every second I could to see if the clinic had called. Just before 1 I got the call. The nurse expressed her condolences and told me to stop taking the progesterone and to call on CD1. I inquired about the clinic closures over the holidays and she assured me that even though they are supposed to be closed on Christmas day, Boxing day and New Years day that they will be available for their clients if procedures are required on those days, and if we didn't mind spending those days with the clinic staff then we can try again this cycle. I was really happy to hear that, I didn't want to have to wait to try again. I mean I was really sad that it didn't work but it can never work if we don't try. 

Try - P!nk 
"Gotta get up and try try try"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O1-m7vub1HM

Ps. I forgot to mention that I came home to flowers and chocolate! <3 Dw and cannot wait to have a baby with her.