Sperm Dream

On Friday night I had a dream that our sperm got delivered to our house. The UPS driver delivered us a garbage can full of ice cubes with little vials floating around in it. Later that night I was set to ovulate so I told DW it's time!! And we went on a hunt in our garbage can for the vial with our donor number on it. For some reason there were several other donor vials in there. I couldn't remember our donor number and I was so frazzled. Then I woke up. 

We are not insemming at home so I have no idea what brought this dream on. haha As for the donor confusion it could be because I have always been worried about a mix up or buying the wrong vials. When I put the order in for our our sperm, I sent the lady I was talking to at the bank a photo of our donor and said this is him right? She said "Yup that's him" and "Ooooo he's a cutie!" My experience with CAN-AM Cryoservices was a really good one. They always answered my millions of emails, they sent me a courtesy email letting me know that Xytex wanted the vials back for another customer, then saved the vials for a couple days until DW and I decided how many we wanted. Ann our representative was just so nice and seemed really excited for DW and I. She wished us much luck and said she hoped to hear from us soon about a pregnancy.

We own...

5 vials of Sperm!! And now we wait for CD1. According to my pink pad app it's about 24 days away. I have a feeling is gonna be a loooong wait. Then the wait for ovulation, IUI and the dreaded but exciting two week wait!! 

We've decided!

We now have until Monday to decide. But our minds are made up. We will be purchasing all 5 vials and will take what we can get, be that one, two or no babies. Hoping and praying for at least one bundle of joy tho. If it's only one we are blessed with we will cross the sibling road if and when we are ready. We are not totally against having an only child either.

Our dr advises us to buy one at a time, he seems pretty confident that I won't have a problem. I kinda get offended at that cause how would he know!? I mean he is a dr but plenty of ppl with no known issues take many tries to conceive. We really like this donor and he is no longer in the program nor does he have any vials to be found anywhere! So we really can't miss out on this opportunity.

So Monday we order sperm then wait for CD1 which should be happening around Nov 15!!!

Donor Dilemma

DW and I are torn. Our 1st choice donor has only 5 vials available and is no longer in the program. We were really hoping for two pregnancies = two children.  5 may be enough or maybe not. We have to decide by tomorrow as the bank in the US wants them for a client. 
Guess there is never a way go know what will be enough. Anyone have a crystal ball? Lol

Hopefully I will get pregnant within the first few tries. Then we'll have a couple for a shot at number two. I guess we could get another donor too if need be. My sister and I are from different fathers and it didn't bother us much. And we never refer to ourselves as 1/2 siblings! We're just sisters. We look completely different and have totally different personalities too and it really doesn't matter. 

But maybe with donor concieved children it might be better cause they would have that 100% blood relative when they don't know the other 50% of their biology?  Ahhh I really don't know.  

I'm so paranoid that we could buy all 5 and end up with twins. My grandmother had twins and the donor has twin brothers!! Combo that with the fact that I will be taking femera!! If we had twins we would be done! Lol The other fact of the matter is we could end up with 5 used up vials and no baby :( 

What to do

My period came yesterday a couple days early!! So we had to make the decision ASAP cause we have to call the clinic on CD1. We went back and forth but decided to wait until next cycle. I have some job stuff up in the air and we have to go to Cuba in April for a wedding and I would be about 28wks along if it took the first time. 

I feel sad about waiting. But I think it's for the best. Did I mention that I'm sad about waiting!? Lol Can't wait for this period to be over and for my next one to show!!! 

Protocol & Coldish feet

Today I got a call from the nurse at our clinic. She met with the Dr to review our chart and said that everything looked fantastic with my investigative cycle!! She said that our Dr has indicated my treatment cycle will consist of Femera 2.5mg to be taken for 5 days, an Ovidrel shot to be taken when advised and Prometrium to be taken 2 days after Ovidrel. How does this sound? A little too aggressive for a 1st-timer??? The nurse said he likes to use some drugs to augment ovulation when using donor sperm because it can get expensive. 

So anyway looks like we have the protocol for our first IUI!! Now we just have to figure out when that will be. I'm due to start my period on Monday...so this could all start really soon. We may wait out this month and try IUI#1 next cycle, this would give us a little more time before all the real TTC madness begins.

Is is bad that I'm the one who has been dying for a baby and now that the process may start sooner rather than later I feel like I'm getting cold feet??!! LOL Did this happen to anyone else? I mean I keep thinking what if it happens the first time? What if it doesn't? What if we get preggers with twins? So many what if's! 

Anyway thanks for reading!

Done!

We are completely done our investigative cycle!!! We had a few scares cause my follicles weren't growing too much initially and the nurse told us we had one more check and if they weren't growing they would stop monitoring. Thankfully by the next appointment I had one in the lead. Turns out I'm just a late bloomer cause my cycle is 32ish days.  Just after that appointment the clinic called and gave us an appointment to meet with the Dr. to review all the test results and talk about protocol, the earliest they had was Nov 21. I was really bummed about that cause it would mean we would miss 2 ovulations :(

I also panicked a little when I had the 3D ultrasound to check the shape of my uterus on Thursday. I googled images when I left the office and tried to remember what mine looked like so I could compare. Then I started freaking myself out cause I wasn't sure if I was remembering right. The tech told me I have to wait till I meet with the Dr...so I was worried about that too! How was I supposed to wait till nearly the end of Nov to know the results!?

Butttttt then the nurse called later that day, she reviewed my charts and said that everything looked great!!! She is meeting with the dr to review patient files next week and will find out if he will give us the go ahead to start a natural cycle or advise her if he wants to augment with some drugs. I was in tears listening to the voicemail and happily forwarded it to DW. This means we may not even need to meet with the Doc!! Thankfully I have since been able to change our appointment from Nov 21st to Oct 30th just in case. Yay!!