Pregnancy test

Today we went off to the clinic for our pregnancy blood work together this time! And we were together when the nurse called too. Finally she called and said the words we had been longing to hear "Your test results today were positive" OMG we cried and hugged and danced around the kitchen. Then I asked her what the levels were and she said "8.5 and 5 is considered pregnant" after that my heart sank. I knew that number sounded really low and that it was just over the minimum. I googled and it didn't seem promising. But for that moment I was pregnant and we were having a baby. I'm have to go back to the clinic in two days to see if my levels rise. Fingers and toes crossed

IUI#3

Third times the charm we hope! On Monday January 28th we were off to the clinic...locking my keys in the car first, thankfully we were in the drive way and I had spare keys in the house and then we drove to the clinic in a freezing rain/snow storm. Finally at 9:30ish am we had our 3rd insemination done by a third person (our actual Dr.) Dear Donor had 11Million post wash which is way less than the last two times, 16 and 20 Million. That bummed me out a bit but our Dr insisted that anything above 5Mil is good. He managed to bypass my tilted cervix and get to my uterus just fine, it was quick and nearly painless. DW and I took our usual photos holding up 3 fingers this time. She sat on Dr. M's wheely chair and chair danced which made we laugh. I read once that laughter helps the swimmers get up there, DW laughed and said "where do you get this stuff from?" She also leaned in and whispered "Swim swim" to the boys. I hope they listened! Ps. We took the empty vial this time. We contemplate it every time but never do it. lol 

DW had to go to work, I stayed home and watched The Backup Plan with Jlo. I got a bit emotional and text DW that I love her and our Peanut (fur baby) with all my heart and that I have some room to spare and hope we have a little one soon. She reminded me that we will always have each other and will have a baby and told me to picture my self in the nursery. Tears ran down my face and I held my belly hoping and praying away. The TWW had begun. 

Moving on to #3

So after our second BFN we picked up the pieces and waited for round 3. AF came on January 15 and our third cycle had begun. I did everything like I had done before, visit clinic CD3 and CD9 and then every day until they told me to trigger. The clinic has been training new staff cause they are so busy especially on the weekends. This resulted in me have a random blood sucker take my blood on CD9. She poked and prodded and couldn't get a vein, then attacked the other arm and left me a nice bruise. I had tears rolling down my face and all I kept thinking was how much I hate this and how we should be pregnant and how hard this process is and we've only tried twice. Then I took a deep breath and said to myself "I'm going to get pregnant, we're going to have a baby"

CD13 showed one nice 21mm follicle and 7.5mm lining. The nurse said make sure you answer your phone and check your messages you will be triggering tonight and insemming tomorrow or Tuesday. Later on the much anticipated call came and the nurse told me I was starting to surge on my own and to take the trigger after 8pm, and come in for insemination at 9am the next day.

Positive Affirmations & Inspiration

My daily affirmations "I'm happy, I'm healthy, I'm going to get pregnant, we're going to be mommies"

Here's my baby inspiration play list and the lyrics that really stick out for me

Colbie Caillat - Capris - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OcJb2K8y8l4

"She’s got a baby inside

And holds her belly tight

All through the night

Just so she knows

She’s sleeping so

Safely to keep

Her growing

And oh when she'll open her eyes

There'll be no surprise

That she'll grow to be

So beautifully

Just like her mother

That’s carrying"

Christina Perri - A thousand Years - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q9ayN39xmsI 

"I have died everyday waiting for you

Darling don't be afraid I have loved you

For a thousand years

I'll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you

Time has brought your heart to me

I have loved you for a thousand years

I'll love you for a thousand more

One step closer

One step closer"

Phillip Phillips - Home - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OTg1n95--KE 

"Hold on, to me as we go

As we roll down this unfamiliar road

And although this wave is stringing us along

Just know you’re not alone

Cause I’m going to make this place your home"

P!nk - Try - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pPtlSF4TlJE 

"Where there is desire
There is gonna be a flame
Where there is a flame
Someone's bound to get burned
But just because it burns
Doesn't mean you're gonna die
You've gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try"
Gotta get up and try try try

BFN

Negative = Heartbroken

4 sleeps

We're 4 sleeps away from testing! & We're super nervous and hoping and praying that we have a little one nestled in my tummy. I think we're about 8DPO and I've been having twinges and bubbly feelings in my lower abdomen area on the left side only (the side I ovulated on) I'm also experiencing a bit of pain like I strained myself in the upper thigh area where my leg connects to my abdomen again only on the left side. It's such a weird feeling. Boobs hurt as well and that's really about it. 

{~{~BABY DUST~}~}

Happy New Year

Happy New Year!! I hope you had a lovely holiday and New Year everyone (all 3 readers! lol) We had a pretty good New Years. DW and I went out for dinner with some friends and then back to our friend's condo. And I pretty much had to beg her to go. She's a lil granny, home body and bed by 10 kinda lady. haha I'm the same but I really wanted to get out cause I'm hoping and praying that we will be home with a baby next NYE.  *fingers and toes crossed*

~*~*~*Baby Dust*~*~*~