Wednesday, 19 December 2012

CD3

So today was CD3. Goodie! I got stuck by a needle, had a full bladder ultrasound and then got the probe. The tech was in there for quite some time and I was starting to get nervous. I guess she kinda noticed that and said don't worry everything looks beautiful. So I was happy to hear that. I didn't get back any of my results so I have no idea how many follicles I have lined up in there. I tried counting her clicks and I think it was about 8 on one side and 6 or 7 on the other. I think I usually have about 15/16 on day 3. 

The nurse instructed me to come back on Christmas day. She said they would only be doing ultrasounds that day. But when I went to book an appointment they were all confused and said they weren't open. I called later on and tried to get everything sorted out. Turns out they want me to come on CD11 which will be the 27th. Last cycle I went in on CD3, 9 and then every day until IUI day. So of course I email L my IUI nurse to confirm that this would be ok. She said "Yes, that should be fine as you did not get triggered last cycle until day
14. Thanks for checking." 

Sure hope she's right! 

Tuesday, 18 December 2012

New protocol? Nope.

So earlier this week I thought I might be getting a new protocol to boost our chances. But I didn't. Here's the email from our IUI nurse. 


Hello A,

I did speak with Dr. M yesterday afternoon. He informed me that he is
happy with the way your cycle went. I discussed that fact that you have
limited tdi samples. He suggested you verify with the donor bank if in fact
there is a limited supply as you may very well use up 4 just with the next
few attempts. Success rates are about 25% each time you try, so 1 in 4
attempts yields a pregnancy. 

We can try adding injections to your protocol which usually increase the
number of follicles produce. This does not increase your chance to conceive
as the percentage is still 25% BUT it does put you at higher risk of twins
of which if you were to conceive with the cycle, it is a 25% chance to be
twins. 

Another option is to go for IVF. Success rates for your age group is about
69% with 25% risk of twins as well. IVF is quite costly at about $9000
including the TDI sample, but not including injections and other drugs.
There is a preparation phase for IVF which would need to take place before
proceeding, this takes approximately 1 cycle to prepare. 

It is understandable that you may wish to try to use the same donor, however
it is not really recommended to tailor your treatment protocol or put you at
higher risk, using more aggressive treatments in an effort to work around
the availability of one particular donor. Dr. M used the analogy of a
button that you may like, on an article of clothing and because you like
that particular button, you buy all your other clothing to go with that
button. So, most would not likely purchase all other items using the one
button as the focal point.

To summarize, he liked how the cycle was going so far and would prefer to
continue that way for now. If you are interested in any of the other two
options let me know however he really would rather you try to open your
options for the TDI sample selection instead of putting yourself at higher
risk using injections to work around one selection. 

Let me know how you wish to proceed. If you have further questions please do
not hesitate to contact me. 

Take care,

L 
GNT/IUI Nurse

My reply to her was Thank you L. I will review this with my wife who is against having twins! Haha So I'm guessing we will stick with the same protocol this time around. 

Monday, 17 December 2012

New Protocol!?

Last night I sent an email to our RE reguarding our protocol. I asked him to review my charts from last cycle and let us know if anything should change to maximize our chances as we have only 4 vials of our dear donor left now. He emailed me back saying he has reviewed my charts and has suggested some changes that the iui nurse will go over with me. I wonder what it will be. I want to increase our chances of concieving but I'm worried about the multiples factor! Yikes maybe I shouldn't have said anything. I guess we'll find out tomorrow. 

*~*~Baby dust to all and to all a good night~*~*

She's here

AF came! I literally said "Yay" out loud when I noticed. But let me tell you she is back with a vengeance cause she's been kicking my ass all day. Major cramps and severe lower back pain. Welcome Cycle Day 1.

Sunday, 16 December 2012

Waiting for her

La la la patiently waiting for AF. I didn't want to see her for 9 months, but now I need her to come so we can start IUI cycle #2. I  stopped taking progesterone on Thursday night. I wonder how long it will take for her to come and I wonder if it will be heavier this month. I'm very anxious to start round 2! IUI could happen around New Years!!

Saturday, 15 December 2012

BFN :(

On December 13th DW and I got a BFN. DW was downstairs eating breakfast while I peed on a stick. I kept starring at it and hoping to see something. Nope just one line and a completely white area where I had hope, dreamed and wished with all my might that there were a line. I checked it in every light imaginable and nothing. When DW came upstairs I showed her. She didn't believe it and thought it was wrong. Then she started to cry. She just couldn't believe that it didn't work. We had done everything right, she just couldn't understand. Then she started to blame the clinic, maybe they had done something wrong. I assured her that we did everything we could and the clinic did too. She took it really hard, which I wasn't really expecting. I mean after all I was the one researching for years and booking all the appointments and really got the ball rolling with everything baby and I have been the one obsessed with everything to do with babies and just dying to have one. I guess she really is excited and wanting a baby too! 

Later that morning I went to the clinic for blood work and then checked by phone every second I could to see if the clinic had called. Just before 1 I got the call. The nurse expressed her condolences and told me to stop taking the progesterone and to call on CD1. I inquired about the clinic closures over the holidays and she assured me that even though they are supposed to be closed on Christmas day, Boxing day and New Years day that they will be available for their clients if procedures are required on those days, and if we didn't mind spending those days with the clinic staff then we can try again this cycle. I was really happy to hear that, I didn't want to have to wait to try again. I mean I was really sad that it didn't work but it can never work if we don't try. 

Try - P!nk 
"Gotta get up and try try try"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O1-m7vub1HM

Ps. I forgot to mention that I came home to flowers and chocolate! <3 Dw and cannot wait to have a baby with her.

Tuesday, 11 December 2012

2 more sleeps!

Two more sleeps, two more sleeps! This has been the longest two weeks ever! I've had sooo many symptoms that I know are brought on by evil progesterone. My newest symptom is a metal/yucky taste in my mouth. Joy! I cannot wait till Thursday! Blood work is scheduled for 9:30am and we should know between 12 & 3 what the verdict is. I'm dying to pee on something tho!! DW is SO scared of a false positive and won't let me. I feel like txting her right now saying "If you love me you will bring home a pregnancy test and a box of Ferrero Rocher" or "If you want dinner, bring me a pee stick woman." lmao We are scared shitless that it didn't work and also that it may have worked. haha I mean we really do want a baby and we wouldn't be paying thousands of dollars for treatment and sperm for no reason. Right!? haha 

The other day I was talking to my old supervisor and she fully just comes out and asks me if I'm pregnant. I laughed and said not yet. Apparently the girls at work saw a hawk while outside on the playground with the kids and instantly thought of me. A little background story: there used to be a crazy lady at my work who believed in all sorts of native old wives tales. She believed that if she saw a hawk that someone she knew was pregnant. And the freaky thing is she was always right and someone at work would get outted as being knocked up. haha That old wives tale has lived on and has always been a reliable source. Bonus, it has to be me cause everyone at my old workplace that could possibly be pregnant, already is! haha 


Let's go Thursday! Let's go! Let's go BFP! Let's gooooooooooo!!!