She's here

AF came! I literally said "Yay" out loud when I noticed. But let me tell you she is back with a vengeance cause she's been kicking my ass all day. Major cramps and severe lower back pain. Welcome Cycle Day 1.

Waiting for her

La la la patiently waiting for AF. I didn't want to see her for 9 months, but now I need her to come so we can start IUI cycle #2. I  stopped taking progesterone on Thursday night. I wonder how long it will take for her to come and I wonder if it will be heavier this month. I'm very anxious to start round 2! IUI could happen around New Years!!

BFN :(

On December 13th DW and I got a BFN. DW was downstairs eating breakfast while I peed on a stick. I kept starring at it and hoping to see something. Nope just one line and a completely white area where I had hope, dreamed and wished with all my might that there were a line. I checked it in every light imaginable and nothing. When DW came upstairs I showed her. She didn't believe it and thought it was wrong. Then she started to cry. She just couldn't believe that it didn't work. We had done everything right, she just couldn't understand. Then she started to blame the clinic, maybe they had done something wrong. I assured her that we did everything we could and the clinic did too. She took it really hard, which I wasn't really expecting. I mean after all I was the one researching for years and booking all the appointments and really got the ball rolling with everything baby and I have been the one obsessed with everything to do with babies and just dying to have one. I guess she really is excited and wanting a baby too! 

Later that morning I went to the clinic for blood work and then checked by phone every second I could to see if the clinic had called. Just before 1 I got the call. The nurse expressed her condolences and told me to stop taking the progesterone and to call on CD1. I inquired about the clinic closures over the holidays and she assured me that even though they are supposed to be closed on Christmas day, Boxing day and New Years day that they will be available for their clients if procedures are required on those days, and if we didn't mind spending those days with the clinic staff then we can try again this cycle. I was really happy to hear that, I didn't want to have to wait to try again. I mean I was really sad that it didn't work but it can never work if we don't try. 

Try - P!nk 
"Gotta get up and try try try"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O1-m7vub1HM

Ps. I forgot to mention that I came home to flowers and chocolate! <3 Dw and cannot wait to have a baby with her.

2 more sleeps!

Two more sleeps, two more sleeps! This has been the longest two weeks ever! I've had sooo many symptoms that I know are brought on by evil progesterone. My newest symptom is a metal/yucky taste in my mouth. Joy! I cannot wait till Thursday! Blood work is scheduled for 9:30am and we should know between 12 & 3 what the verdict is. I'm dying to pee on something tho!! DW is SO scared of a false positive and won't let me. I feel like txting her right now saying "If you love me you will bring home a pregnancy test and a box of Ferrero Rocher" or "If you want dinner, bring me a pee stick woman." lmao We are scared shitless that it didn't work and also that it may have worked. haha I mean we really do want a baby and we wouldn't be paying thousands of dollars for treatment and sperm for no reason. Right!? haha 

The other day I was talking to my old supervisor and she fully just comes out and asks me if I'm pregnant. I laughed and said not yet. Apparently the girls at work saw a hawk while outside on the playground with the kids and instantly thought of me. A little background story: there used to be a crazy lady at my work who believed in all sorts of native old wives tales. She believed that if she saw a hawk that someone she knew was pregnant. And the freaky thing is she was always right and someone at work would get outted as being knocked up. haha That old wives tale has lived on and has always been a reliable source. Bonus, it has to be me cause everyone at my old workplace that could possibly be pregnant, already is! haha 

Let's go Thursday! Let's go! Let's go BFP! Let's gooooooooooo!!!

5 more sleeps!

We're just over one week in and five sleeps till our test!!! So far I have experiencing lower back pain and my lower abdomen has felt weird since the IUI, my boobs hurt a bit and can be itchy at times, and I've been very forgetful lately.  The other day I made soup and it was horrible, then I threw in a frozen pizza and cooked it with the cardboard on the bottom, and today I swore I took DW's cell out of her coat and apparently I didn't. I had to call her cell five times in order to find it in her pocket! Lol I have also been out of breath a lot too which is not like me. DW even commented although I think she things I'm exaggerating.  haha I'm sure all these are due to the progesterone at this point. But I'm obviously hoping and praying for a BFP! I've been thinking about POAS soon just to see if the trigger is out and then again on the morning of our blood work, I have always dreamed of DW and I finding out that way together. She's too afraid of a false positive so I guess I won't be POAS's till after the blood work. haha We're off to watch Elf now and eat Tostitos and cheese dip which I sent DW to get just now. I've been craving it since I saw it in a flyer yesterday. Yum yum yum! Hope everyone is having a lovely Saturday :)

8 days till testing

I've been so busy at work and home lately! Happy to be busy but I'm a bit stressed and overwhelmed. There actually have been a few moments in a day that I almost forget we inseminated and that I, god willing could be with child. One minute I have a good feeling about getting a BFP, the next I'm in disbelief that I could actually have a one hit wonder. I keep having BFP dreams and dreams about our baby AND the day after our IUI my sister texts asking if DW and I are pregnant, she had a dream we were having twins! Btw she doesn't even know that we were going to try, so it was totally random. I fluffed it off and joked about her imagining DW and I with twins and how crazy we would be. lol Now I'm all paro about twins. Our donor has twin brothers and my Grandma had a set of twins and I was on femera. lol I'm pretty sure I only had one follie in the lead tho. haha

I have been feeling a little strange in the lower abdomen off and on since the IUI. Tonight I had some twinges and slight cramping. Maybe implantation? I have also been having headaches off and on for the last few days and some itchy boobies and lower back pain too. Ps. The progesterone suppositories are starting to build up if you know what I mean. Lol That's all for now. 

*~*~* Baby dust to all and to all a good night *~*~*

Post IUI Update

I have felt a little weird in my lower abdomen since the iui. It doesn't hurt or anything just feels weird. Hopefully it's not my body rejecting the sperm lol Tonight I had the pleasure of shoving two progesterone pills up my whoha. I'm armed with a liner! Yay!